It is a make-a-big-pot-of-soup kind of day.

Because a bowl of Soup is the Threshold back to the Normal and Ordinary and Simple, at the end of an illness or a long, ragged bent of just not being yourself.
This Monday morning, I awoke to fire bombs in the collapsing streets of the Capitol still shrieking in my ears, a ringing aftermath in tympanic memory. Between the final pages of The Hunger Games trilogy. . .and the viewing of the girl with the dragon tattoo (eyes latticed by fingers and fast forward employed judiciously). . .it feels as if some hand has plunged deep inside me and turned me inside out. I make no apologies. Yes, I am a Christian, and yes, I am sure that I was supposed to watch that movie. . .because sometimes I am too distant from just how lost the world is without Christ. . .and that evil is - yes - more evil than I can imagine. . .and I found my heart breaking for the victim and raging at a perpetrator who is so lost he is no longer human. . .and the big picture helps me to understand my little picture.
Like I said, just maybe this will speak to someone who has found herself in a similar place.
Sometimes I stop praying because I am hurting but I don't think I should hurt because really. . .I am so blessed. Thus tongue-tied, I forget to take into account the affect of real life hunger games. Don't let the enemy do that to you, Best Heart.
God will use even a movie . . .a book. . .to get to you if He has to.
For me, a cathartic purging has cleansed the wound. .

.and it is as good a day as any to remember what I have to be thankful for. . .
and make a bowl of soup.
Father leaves on the corner of a little table in my mind The Keeping of Home to read. . .a little parachute. . .a tin of balm. . .meant just for me. . .
And I give one thousand thanks...
#0652 - sunshine, yellow walls, like egg yokes in morning light and melting butter by afternoon
#0653 - satisfaction of swiping a cloth soaked in lemon cleaner through thick grey dust and leaving a wake of shining wood
#0654 - pollen, lime green and burgeoning with life and I sneeze spring into summer, as if somehow my nasal congestion is part of what it takes for flowers to bloom.
#0655 - most powerful movie moment of my life, when District 11 returns Katniss of District 12's salute. . . goose bumps head to toe. . .and heart beats what tongue cannot express. . .we need each other, people. . .
#0656 - five new t-shirts for the gym. . .yellow, pink, lavender, blue and gray
#0657 - when you, smiling one, clean the sink until it sparkles because you have seen and you know what others take for granted. . .
#0658 - a bowl of pineapple cut into chunks sitting on the refrigerator shelf for me because you do not know how to say you are sorry for burning the quiche I made for you. . .(I am so sorry I yelled; will you have some pineapple, too?)
#0659 - the dozen ways each day, you, brown eyes and freckles, tell me that you love me. . .sometimes in words, sometimes a small gesture of thoughtfulness. . .like breakfast on a tray or a glass of water at my elbow.
#0660 - and you, little mischief, supposedly listening to my explosion of self-pity with compassion, and I catch you trying not to laugh. "You're better than a stand-up comedienne," you defend yourself, and tears on my face, I start to laugh, too. I was funny, wasn't I? And then your sweet, little voice, "I just want to fix it for you, mommy."
#0661 - and one more. . .soup. That's it. Just soup. Soul-satisfying, warm, and savory. Soup. Threshold back to Normal.

All Grace. All from Him.
Counting with the Community at. . .
